GIRL ON COMMENTARY: On Tuesday, March 21 2006, my mother had a seizure. She was diagnosed with a brain tumor. Over the next 18 months I watched her slowly fade away and on September 11, 2007 she died. I lost my mother, my hero, and my best friend. There is no manual on how to deal with losing someone and everyone reacts differently.
MOM ON VIDEO: "Meg, c'mon get the tapes off me (laughing)"
GIRL ON COMMENTARY: I began spending more and more time alone. I refused to let myself feel the pain of it all. I thought that no one could possible understand what I was going through. I was pushing away those closest to me. I told myself I was fine, but I wasn't. I was lost, sad, angry, and alone. My mother left us all notes when she passed. In the letter she wrote to me she said, "live, love, and be happy. Some people can never enjoy what they have. No matter what your situation don't be one of those people."
I started writing down my emotions and reaching out to my friends and family. I began talking about my mom and all the wonderful times we had. And at first it was really hard. But the more I talked about her, the better I felt. Not everyone get a letter from a passed loved one, and all people grieve differently. I started to look at the positive and focus on all the great memories I had of her. It's been over a year now and I'm getting on with my life. I still have my bad days, but they are getting fewer and further between. But most importantly, I try to honor my mother's memory everyday by being thankful for what I have. And living my life to the fullest.