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Recovering from sexual assault, self-harm, drugs, and depression

My name is Tiffani, and I am on the road to recovery from self-harm, sexual assault, drug abuse and severe depression. And I’m finding a way to handle my diabetes and other health problems.

When I was only 9 years old, my best friend’s dad molested me.  This triggered a whole lot of problems. When I was 11, I got addicted to narcotics and began self-harming. I did all this to try and cope with my depression, but it was never a permanent solution.  Looking back, I realized it only made things worse for me.

Then, when I was 12 I was diagnosed with diabetes. I spent countless nights in the hospital for it. Finally, at 14, I told somebody about being molested; and the memories sent me into a downward spiral. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital for a week after almost succeeding with my suicide attempt.

After I got out of the hospital, I saw how many people I hurt just because I wasn’t learning how to cope. So, I signed up for a teen therapy group and started seeing a therapist every two weeks. I also got on a healthy dose of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication. I learned that it was okay to talk to people close to me about what was going on. They didn’t judge me or think that I was broken; they just cared. That really helped a lot. I also started working with my doctors more to help control my diabetes.  Having my blood sugar under control really helped improve my mood. In fact, the last time I self-harmed was December 9, 2009.

I still have a few bad days, when I feel like I can’t get out of bed.  But I have friends, family and doctors to help me work through it. I no longer have to resort to self-harm or drugs. Now, I feel happier than I have in seven years. If I can do it, I know you can too.

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    living_happily7

    Hey there,
    I totally know what its like to be sexually abused and i am so sorry that, that happened to you as well. It isn’t an easy thing to go through and it will get better. I know thats probably not what you want to hear right now, but if you keep those words in your mind it will help! Stay strong!

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    noplaceforhate

    stay strong,mate
    the man who comitted this heinous crime is a MONSTER

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    Jd

    HEY TIFFANI,
    I understand the pain you went through as a child as I too was molested at a young age I know how hard it is to deal with the knowledge of going through something as traumatic as that. being diagnosed with diabetes is hard and I am rooting for you because theres always a light at the end and it seems like you reached your goal. if you ever need to talk im here for you

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    HEislove

    you can get through this, beautiful! glad to hear that you’re on the road to recovery. you are loved!!

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    Kortni

    I too have been suicidal…..

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      ReachOut

      Hi Kortni -
      We are sorry to hear that you have had times when you have been suicidal—but glad to hear you made it through. Please remember if you ever feel this way again that the Boys Town National Hotline is here to help, anonymously, 24/7 at 1-800-448-3000. Also available on line for live chat at Your Life Your Voice (http://yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/default.aspx. We wish you all the best in the New Year.
      The ReachOut Crew

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    Maggie Angel

    It’s good to hear that you’re well. You’ve really inspired me. Thank you.

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    Lovely16

    im sorry to hear that

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    Lost....

     I’m so sorry for what happened to you. I’m glad to hear you are happy now,

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