Recovering from sexual assault, self-harm, drugs, and depression
My name is Tiffani, and I am on the road to recovery from self-harm, sexual assault, drug abuse and severe depression. And I’m finding a way to handle my diabetes and other health problems.
When I was only 9 years old, my best friend’s dad molested me. This triggered a whole lot of problems. When I was 11, I got addicted to narcotics and began self-harming. I did all this to try and cope with my depression, but it was never a permanent solution. Looking back, I realized it only made things worse for me.
Then, when I was 12 I was diagnosed with diabetes. I spent countless nights in the hospital for it. Finally, at 14, I told somebody about being molested; and the memories sent me into a downward spiral. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital for a week after almost succeeding with my suicide attempt.
After I got out of the hospital, I saw how many people I hurt just because I wasn’t learning how to cope. So, I signed up for a teen therapy group and started seeing a therapist every two weeks. I also got on a healthy dose of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication. I learned that it was okay to talk to people close to me about what was going on. They didn’t judge me or think that I was broken; they just cared. That really helped a lot. I also started working with my doctors more to help control my diabetes. Having my blood sugar under control really helped improve my mood. In fact, the last time I self-harmed was December 9, 2009.
I still have a few bad days, when I feel like I can’t get out of bed. But I have friends, family and doctors to help me work through it. I no longer have to resort to self-harm or drugs. Now, I feel happier than I have in seven years. If I can do it, I know you can too.