My story may be different or unusual from some people here, but I’ve bore the pain and marks that many of us have felt and overcome. This is my story.
My name is Jordan, and I’m 16 years old. I began homeschooling in the 7th grade and will graduate high school next year as a homeschooler. My family has always been loving, supportive, and has raised me properly in a positive Christian household. My father used to be a worship leader at our church. He is incredible and has influenced my life greatly. As a homeschooler, I learned to be independent and, contrary to what most people think, I learned to be socially active. I had a good relationship with God, great parents, an amazing sister and a small, but good group of friends. It might seem like I had it good on the physical appearance, but mentally I was slowing deteriorating.
When I was 10, I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder, or ADD, and not to mention the worst case of it too. I’ve also had episodic depression for as long as I can remember. People don’t realize how difficult it is to complete a single task with ADD. I can’t remember anything; people have told me I’m lazy and careless. It’s definitely an emotional rollercoaster. It has caused me deep, painful memories, which left a permanent reminder on the back of my forearm. Since 8th grade, I was also reaching out to a good friend who was extremely unstable and suicidal. This also took an emotion toll on me, and I often felt like a hypocrite trying to help her when I couldn’t even help myself.
I called on the Lord to save me from my emotional instability and to give me strength to overcome my disability. Although ADD doesn’t seem like a big deal on the outside, it’s a steep, difficult hill on the inside. I also talked to my parents and my friends, and I realized that some of my other friends could relate too. Since then, I’ve been healed, forgiven and have gained strength and willpower. I realized that I could overcome my disabilities and work toward my goal: to become a nurse. I also found comfort in my artistic abilities: creative writing, singing, playing the guitar and photography. I also was given a verse in the Bible that motivated me to really move on. Philippians 4:13-14 says, “Forgetting those things which are behind and looking forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal of the upward call of Jesus Christ.”
Always remember that high school is only the beginning of your life. So don’t give up now because the pain you’re feeling now will not last forever, no matter what someone or something tries to convince you. Talk to people because you’re not alone.