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Over the rainbow

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My nickname is Kelsey Rayne, and I am 16. I wear neon tights, and tutus. My hair is never the same color for more than a month, and I am a photographer in training. Like most teen girls, I just want to be liked, skinny, beautiful and smart.

Fate has different plans for me.

My father was very sick when I was young. We had lots of bills and little money. By the age of 13, I was basically raising my younger siblings. My schoolwork suffered, and I was depressed. I tried to avoid people and kept my nose in the books. When I couldn’t, I turned to the blade to keep my mind off my problems. Winter would pass, and I would have to wear long sleeves all the time. None of my friends noticed, and my family didn’t appear to care. I was scared, sad, and alone.

Then I met a boy. He was smart, funny, and cute. But things moved too fast, and I allowed myself to be pressured to do things I regret. My self-harm became worse, and I became truant.

I started blogging about my experiences, and received an amazing amount of support from people I had never met, but felt as if I did. They encouraged me to stop cutting, to stop hiding, and to be who I was meant to be. Because of them, I grew out of my shell, and stopped hiding from reality.

I no longer feel the need to hide my scars and am no longer ashamed of who I am. Sometimes I get weird looks and snickers, but I ignore them.

It does get better. It may not sound like much, but I went through hell and back. If I can do it, you can too. Just because it isn’t said, doesn’t mean you aren’t beautiful, smart, and amazing.

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    Lotsoflove4sos

    This was alot of my story I am creative and just wanted to hear all that. I started cutting at 14 and did it till I was 23 I now no longer have to rely on that. Keep letting people know that it gets better!

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    The Power Of One Forever

    For one i love your title and ive had the same stuff happen to me, so your story means the world to me. I love the first paragraph, also speaks to me, and I am working towards getting over my self-harm. I work on it every day

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      ReachOut

      Hey, good for you for recovering from self-harm by taking it one day at a time! If you ever feel like you need some more support and need to talk to someone, call Boys Town (not just for boys!) at 1-800-448-3000.  Wishing you the best! The ReachOut Crew

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