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My life as a depressed college freshman


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Overcoming depression by getting help

The college transition is tough for a lot of people, moving away from home, meeting new people, taking harder classes. I had a tougher time than most. I was always shy and kind of reserved, which held me back once I began college. I also didn’t get along with my roommates very well. They both had personalities incredibly different from mine, and I would often feel like an outsider. I started to get kind of down on myself.  I felt worse and worse every day. I came up with excuses not to hang out with friends, slacked a little on my school work and started losing a lot of weight. I planned on telling my parents when I went home for Christmas break, but I was afraid of what they would think, so it never happened.

When I returned to school for spring semester, my depression didn’t improve. In fact, it got worse. When I would wake up in the morning, it seemed like getting out of bed was the hardest thing I would ever have to face. I stopped hanging out with my friends almost entirely and began attending my classes only sporadically. I began thinking about suicide often. I couldn’t get it out of my head. I would spend whole weekends cooped up in my dorm, exhausted but unable to sleep, while my roommates went home or hung out with friends. I was failing most of my classes. I knew something was wrong, but I refused to believe that anything I tried would pick me up out of the rut I was in.

So, I decided to end it. One night, while I was alone in the room, I prepared to kill myself. Everything was in place; I just had to do it. Then, I remembered that my roommates would be the ones to find me and that wasn’t fair to them. So, I waited.

While waiting for another chance to end it, I began to realize the world is a beautiful place. I just failed to notice. I decided, after much internal debate, to give it one more chance. There is so much life I hadn’t dealt with yet, and it seemed unfair to not give the future a chance.

I am so glad I didn’t give up. Things slowly started to get better. I attended club meetings on campus that dealt with positive self-image. It was hard, but I made myself go out more often, even though it was hard. Most of my friends knew something was up, and they were willing to take baby steps to help me feel better. I’m getting better grades and am active in a few extracurricular activities. My days aren’t all perfect, but no one’s are. I began to find joy in the little things, lunch with a friend, reading in the park or having coffee with my mom.

Everybody’s fighting some kind of battle; we just labor under the delusion that we’re alone and we have to keep it all inside. You aren’t alone, and you don’t have to keep it all inside. Trust me. Give life one more chance.



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    Hi.  I am a freshman in college studying in a big university.  I still can’t make myself feel at home in this place.. Im pressured mostly by profs.  Actually its almost 12am here and I cant sleep.. And my grades arent helping.  Second semester is almost done and yet here I am being zombified for finals.  I love this school.  Pls grades be good to me :(

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    i’m still in high school, and i get really stressed there, was college hard??

    i’ve been having my depression and anxiety since i was young but my parents didn’t really notice it, at school i close myself from others and don’t really have any friends.

    everything’s going smoothly from primary to junior high school
    but once i’ve stepped to highschool everything changes. people starts to bully me, my grades are going downhill, and i’ve been having eating disorders.

    can you help me?

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      We’re sorry you’ve been struggling so much!  Do you have anyone you can talk to about it?  Maybe a counselor at school, or some other trusted adult?  You could contact Your Life Your Voice, which is an excellent youth helpline.  The ways to contact them are listed on this site:  Talking about it can be really good, and help you get a new perspective on everything.

      Stay strong!
      —The ReachOut Crew

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    This exact same thing happened to me, except I’m still trying to pick myself up. I still have depressed moments and my home life isn’t like yours. I get yelled at by my mom, instead of any kind of support. Both my parents know about me trying to kill myself. I have the scars on my wrist to plague me for life.
    And, like you, I refuse to believe there’s a way for me to get out of it, so I get worse. What do I do? I’ve had a counselor, but it didn’t really help. What would you suggest?

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    I know it is very hard time for all students. new people, new place, new atmosphere. Most of the student can’t adjust with other student, they feel alone, they miss them family and afraid with that time . And they feel depressed and I decided to end it. it is not good way to take the passion .Everybody’s fighting some kind of battle but winner is who who don’t afraid from bad time .

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