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My story of struggling with manic depression

For a long time, I found myself severely depressed. I had a bad break-up, during which my ex-girlfriend left me for my best friend after two years. I couldn’t eat, and I cried myself to sleep just about every night. I just didn’t have the energy or the will to get out of bed, or even see the sunlight for days. I hated everything and everyone around me.

Depression really is a life consuming disorder that you just can’t help; it’s almost like a common emotion for me, always angry, sad, mad, confused and ready to end it all at any given moment. There are things in life that you can’t explain, like the feeling depression gives you, but if it gets that intense, where you’re about to pull the big one,  you just have to sit down and think, “Is it really worth it?” Of course, at the time, you think it is, but when you calm down, you always remember why you stayed and everything that you would have left behind.  It can only happen once.

Suicide is like a match; one strike and that’s it.  If it ever gets to that point, take it from someone who has suffered manic depression; Get help. As much as you don’t want to admit it, it helps to talk to someone, anyone, to make you feel better. I hope my story can help.

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    nevermore72

    If the pressure or the pain or merely a single thought has been inflicting hardship on you, please don’t give up. Many times, my sister has gone through a sort of phase where she underwent some serious depression. For us, it felt as if the world was literally against us. Tragedy after tragedy came into our family and it felt as if we were trapped with no escape. Now, I’m an optimist, she’s more of the opposite. For me, I try my best to not let all those tragedies in my life affect the path to my future. I’m trying to get an education, and the things I’m going through has proven a difficulty with that. I think my sister feels the same way, about her path to her future. I told her,“Our life may suck now, but we mold our own future.” Because for my sister and I, I feel like all we have left is our future. The present is just crap that we have to get through.

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    Natalie_Lucas

    Well I need some help! My best friend Danielle died when she was walking to school when a guy ran the stop sign and didn’t realize that he was dragging her! I was right there and witnessed the whole thing. She died on February 9th, 2012 and I feel like it was my fault for witnessing the incident! In over more than a month but less than 3 months will come the day of her 2nd year not being here with us on Earth! I keep blaming myself and my parents keep telling me it’s not my fault but right now i don’t believe them! Please Help Me!!!!!!!!11

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    Carie Glover

    That is really true suicide is like a match one strike that’s it!! I love it!!!

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    Sonii_1594

    well i lyk the fact that yur helping people kuz i lost my boyfriend 3 months ago kuz he shot him sell he commited suicide and im still tryin to figure out why he did it? is hard sumtimes i feel depress wen i think of him but thinks are gettin better

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    Helloimdolly

    I agree… My life feels like its falling apart. My parents are divorced and my dad is remaried. All of my friends at school are very suportive. Sometimes (alot of the time) I cut myself or burn the bottom of my feet because I cant handle the stress in my life. My Uncle is in jail and my life at school and my grades and stuff arent that great either because I keep thinking that everything that I do will make a difference on somebody in my life and it does… but the pressure for that is too much for me to handle.</p>

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    Christian

    This is exactly how I feel all the time.

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