Hi, world. My name is Michael, and I’m 15 years-old and entering my freshman year in high school.
As a teenager, living with Asperger’s syndrome is very difficult. Growing up, people labeled me as an “annoying freak with no friends.” And being the person I was, I couldn’t figure out why. I told my parents every time it happened, but I never mentioned any specific names because I was afraid that the kids doing it would get mad at me for reporting them.
In fourth grade, my parents decided to take me to a social specialist to figure out if I needed any specific help or if I had any form of Autism. The results came back that I had Asperger’s syndrome. I never understood what it was until I started seeing a social worker in school.
I really realized that having Asperger’s had been a problem for me in my life when I entered middle school. Kids around me wouldn’t want to be around me because I apparently annoyed them on purpose, which was a lie. They didn’t understand that I had trouble understanding their social cues.
Almost every night I would cry myself to sleep because I felt like I had no friends, that I was all alone in school with no one to talk to.
Each year got a little bit better. After hearing that all the middle school drama would soon diminish in high school, I became, and still am to this very moment, incredibly excited and ready for another school year.
Each day, during lunch period, I would either sit alone or have a teacher force the kids at another table to allow me to sit down. In doing that, I would try to include myself in the conversation. All I would get would be a silent glare or somebody telling me off for no reason at all.
I got through this by talking to people alone in the hallways. Some of whom were the people I sat with at lunch and realizing that they were going along with their peers simply because they were afraid that they would be treated like I was.
Don’t be upset because you don’t think people like you. Many of them do, they just might be scared by what might happen if they confess to it.