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I am Ashley, and when I was five I was sexually assaulted. At age 11, I was diagnosed with depression and by sixth grade I had an eating disorder, and I self-harmed regularly. I had so many demons inside of me and no amount of medication, sleep, cutting or food could get them out. I got worse until one day I decided I was all done fighting.
When I decided I was done fighting my battle and would rather let the demons get to me was my worst point. I was in a psych hospital for about a week after my attempt and was in a partial program for four weeks after that. During this time, I did not want to get better and was still giving up. One day, something clicked to me. I have to want it. Of course nothing was working, because I wasn’t trying. Facing my best friend was painful on a daily basis, seeing the sadness in her eyes. I think that is what really set me off and made me want to get better. In one therapy session, I came out with EVERYTHING. I got it all off my chest; my assault, abusive relationship, cutting, anorexia, depression, all of it.
All in all, it was rough, and I felt like it would never end, BUT it did and now I am happy again. I am able to be with people and be myself. I did it, it may take time, but you can do it too. Best of luck… it gets better. And if you think no one cares, I do, and I love you. Stay strong <3
When I decided I was done fighting my battle and would rather let the demons get to me was my worst point. I was in a psych hospital for about a week after my attempt, and was in a partial program for 4 weeks after that. During this time, I did not want to get better and was still giving up. One day, something clicked to me. I have to want it. Of course nothing was working, because I wasn’t trying. Facing my best friend was painful on a daily basis, seeing the sadness in her eyes. I think that is what really set me off and had me want to get better. In one therapy session, I came out with EVERYTHING. I got it all off my chest; my assault, abusive relationship, cutting, anorexia, depression, all of it.
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