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From sexual abuse to self-abuse, how I got through

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Hello, my name is Hannah, and I am a sophomore. When I was young, I was molested. This wasn’t just a one-time scarring situation; it happened for years and years. I hid it from my memory for quite some time.

At around 7th grade, I began to hurt myself. I’m quite the perfectionist, so I felt that punishment was necessary for my imperfections. As the memories started to come back, I hurt myself more.  By 8th grade, I was a huge, panicky mess. I had one friend to confide in who aided me, but I was still on my own.

Eventually, and with much prayer, I saw that my self-abuse was only causing me more pain, aside from the immediate relief. It merely dug me deeper into a hole. I eventually stopped, but gradually. As for the memories, I work at a summer camp and have shared my story with many girls. It has helped them get through hard times, and I’ve had a few tell me I’ve saved their lives. My past is a part of me and makes me who I am, so I no longer wish it to be hidden. When shared, it not only makes an impact but also relieves the huge weight, knowing I’ve helped others. This is how I got through.

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    piercethethoughts

    The same thing is happening to me. I am a 10th grader. I was sexually molested from the time when I was 3 to now. I get bullied a lot now because of how dependent on sex I am. I use to be so sad about it but now I’m more upset and pissed.

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      ReachOut

      We are so sorry that these things have been going on.  Have you talked to anyone about it, and received any help? You could get some questions answered, and also get some great support by calling RAINN (the Rape, Abuse, Incest National Network) at 1- 800-656-HOPE (4673).  RAINN.org is a free, confidential and secure crisis hotline 24/7 for victims of sexual assault or violence. 

      We are concerned for you,
      The ReachOut Crew

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