Hi, my name is Mary, and I live in Florida. When I was in college, I started dating my roommate, who was also a girl. I never considered myself to be gay or even bisexual, so it was very different for me. I come from a very conservative, religious family, so I was constantly in denial of my feelings. My girlfriend was very patient. When I finally told my mom about our relationship, she helped me through it. Obviously, there was a lot of backlash, and my parents all but disowned me. I felt like I was the butt of every joke. I had always been the golden child with straight A’s, and suddenly I was the black sheep of my family just because of who I was dating. I couldn’t understand how my parents could suddenly stop loving me. After coming back from winter break, I became more anxious and started having panic attacks. I didn’t want to leave my dorm room; I just wanted to lie in bed where it was safe.
My girlfriend was able to persuade me to talk to my doctor, who helped me regain control of my life! I learned that what I was going through was normal and that there was nothing to be ashamed of. I found myself befriending more open-minded people. My friends at college knew about my girlfriend, and they never judged us or made us feel like we were doing something wrong. Another big step was admitting to myself that what I was doing wasn’t wrong. I eventually came clean to my friends back home, who were totally supportive of my decision. Although my relationship with my girlfriend didn’t last, it taught me a lot about the relationships you develop in life and about loving yourself.
Everyone goes through a hard time, and you aren’t alone. If you’re feeling sad, please reach out to someone. <3