Overcoming my eating disorder and past sexual abuse
My name is Mandy. To begin, I had a family—my real biological family—up until I was three. Then, I was put into foster care with one of my siblings. After that, I went to live with a relative, where the abuse took place. When I was around five or six years old, I was placed with another family, who are now my adoptive parents.
For about six years, I thought nothing of the abuse, but when I turned 12 I dwelled on it. I became angry that my parents didn’t want me, that my own family abused me, and that people expected me to love and care for them. At that time, I had a severe problem with hoarding food. I ate my feelings, I guess. The thought that swarmed in my mind was “Why me?” I felt worthless and began to have suicidal thoughts.
Soon I started hearing from my sister and how she felt the same way. But she bottled her feelings up and, well, made some very bad choices. I saw the outcome of not letting go of the past and felt ashamed. I started surrounding myself with family and friends, the people who really love me. I realized I am worthy of love! Although at times it starts to weigh me down, and I know it’s normal, I don’t let it overwhelm me. I am now 14 and am coping with my life. I have overcome being sexually abused!