My name is Mai. I go to a really good, diverse and open school. Recently, I’ve started to notice that even though I want to hook up with guys and stuff, I fantasize about making out with girls too. And even more recently I’ve realized I might have a crush on my best friend, who is a girl.
She’s the best. She was there for me when I was being cyber-bullied, when I started questioning myself, and everything. I am completely open to her, she probably knows more about me than my parents. But I started to catch myself thinking about wanting to kiss her, almost as much as kissing my guy crush.
I’m still working through it, but I know that if she truly is as close a friend to me as I think she is, she’ll accept it if I tell her I like her. She and some of my closest friends know that I am 90 percent sure I am bi, and they support me, no matter what.
My closest friends are there for me, even if I have a crush on one of them, and that’s all that matters to me.