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Life can be rough sometimes, and most people, at one time or another, feel like shit. This can mean different things for different people. It might include feeling sad, angry, stressed out, or fed up. It might also be a sense of not feeling like yourself or feeling physically sick.
Why you might be feeling shitty
Sometimes it is difficult to work out why you are feeling shitty. Identifying the factors that are contributing to this feeling might help you to work out how to deal with it. Remember —it’s just a feeling and it’s likely to pass.
Some reasons you might feel shitty:
- You’ve experienced one or several tough or stressful events;
- People around you are experiencing tough times. It’s not uncommon for other people’s unhappiness to influence how you’re feeling. This could be because it is hard to see people you care about feeling sad, or because of the way they’re coping with their emotions, they are difficult to be around.
Not being able to identify the reason for how you are feeling is not uncommon. Factors that might contribute to feeling shitty include:
Psychological factors
- Stress or anxiety—Stress can come from many different sources, like pressures at school, work or home from parents, teachers and sometimes your friends, or even your own expectations;
- Grief or loss—This can include the death of a loved one, or the end of a relationship or friendship;
- Depression and other mental illnesses.
Social factors
- Family problems, like parents going through a divorce or fighting, or transitioning to a step family;
- Problems at school or work, like bullying or violence;
- Relationship or friendship problems, like breaking up or fighting with a boyfriend or girlfriend;
- Moving into a new house;
- Starting at a new school or job;
- Living with someone with a mental or physical illness or disease;
- Feeling bored or uninspired, like over school or summer vacation.
Physical factors
Physical or biological factors might also influence your feelings and reactions as well as how you think about yourself and the world around you. Physical factors might include:
- Not eating well;
- Not getting enough exercise;
- Not getting enough sleep;
- Using drugs or alcohol;
- Being sick, or fighting off illness, which can make you feel run down and not well;
- Chronic illness or other medical conditions;
- Hormonal changes, especially for women during their menstrual cycles. This may happen a few days before you get your period and you may not make the connection immediately.
What to do if you’re feeling shitty
When you’re feeling shitty, you might have the urge to lash out at someone, even if they had nothing to do with your feelings. Here are some ideas that might stop you from blowing up and help you get to a happier place.
Get informed. Once you figure out what might be causing you to feel shitty, you can do something about it. On the ReachOut site, you’ll find tons of info on different issues, including depression, family and relationships. You’ll also find suggestions on how to manage your feelings and where you can get help.
Talk to someone. Talking to someone you feel comfortable with, like a friend, teacher, parent or counselor, can be a great way of expressing your feelings. These people might also be able to help you identify why you are feeling shitty and work out strategies for dealing with it.
Chill out. Sometimes getting some space away from what is making you feel this way or a change of scenery can be helpful. This might include going for a walk or listening to your favorite music, reading a book, going to the movies, or whatever works for you.
Express your feelings. Writing down your feelings or keeping a journal can be a great way of understanding your current emotions in a particular situation. It can also help you come up with alternative solutions to problems.
Express your feelings in a way that won’t cause bodily damage to yourself or another person. Try yelling or crying into a pillow, dancing round the room to loud music or punching a pillow.
Get creative. Find things to do to distract yourself from feeling shitty and that get you thinking creatively. This can include drawing a picture, writing a poem, or playing a game. Even though you might not feel like it at first, even a little creativity might be enough to shift your mood.
Take care of yourself. Feeling shitty may be your body telling you it needs to take time out, and pushing yourself physically might just make things worse. Take time out to spoil yourself by doing something that you usually enjoy. Even though you might not feel like it, exercising and eating well can help. Getting plenty of sleep is important, too.
Exercise helps stimulate hormones like endorphins, which help you feel better about yourself. If you haven’t done a lot of exercise before, it might be a good idea to start doing something small a couple of times each week, such as a 15-minute walk or two or three laps in a pool. Visiting your doctor for a regular check up can be a way to make sure there you don’t have any physical health problems.
Avoid drugs and alcohol. Try not to use alcohol or other drugs (including lots of caffeine or other energy-boosting drinks) in the hopes of feeling better. The feeling is usually temporary and the side effects often make you feel worse.
If you need someone to talk to now
Try calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the Boys Town National Hotline at 1-800-448-3000 if you would like to talk to someone right now. Both hotlines have trained volunteers ready to listen 24/7.
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Brandon CI’m reading a book now that talks about a lot of this thinking errors. These are real things and stop people from listening and understanding others.
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Lateshathank you
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InfameThis thing kinda helps
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Amy KingReally helps to hear this kind of thing
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ilovekeylin1234this helps a little
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glows_gurlMy counselor has me on a few meds they dont make my life perfect but they seem to help my suggestion is to go for it and try it
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glows_gurla lot of ppl i got close to b4 left me alone I know how u feel my family wont listen and/or dont wanna hear it the only 3 ppl I have is my dogs and my husband and ive come to realize that is enough, if they dont like me for who i am or what i do then f*** them i know im good enough
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Awsomegurl402This really helps. My parents just got a divorce and i get picked on at school soo its been kinda hard but i just try to keep my head high
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KenzieI can’t even explain how much I can relate to this…
It’s almost, unreal. A lot of times I don’t feel like being around people or going to school
because of how awful i’m feeling. I think the people I have affected by feeling awful will
appreciate how much I learned from this! xoxo
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cre0nI love this site
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crazyChristlova_313Thank you so much! Understanding all this crap really helps, though I didn’t think giving it MORE attention would.
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Sophie MaziragaI love this website. I like most how it’s realistic and helps me deal with teen problems I have. Depression gets to me and this makes me feel a whole lot better.
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Na14hi guys my name is vanessa, and im suffering from alot i think it all begins with me being unhappy. i had an amazing boyfriend but i slowly pushed him away for me being so unhappy with myself that i stoped making him happy. ive been threw rough things and im jobless and not attending college. when i meet my boyfriend it was right before high school ended and i was at the highest point of my life i managed to graduate something i never thought id do…after high school i had no car and i only hung out with him because i had no car but he did. so i lost my friends i wanted all my time with him….but i became a nagging person and bitch to him and after 14months he had enough…we would fight and he started putting up with me less and less….i got very depressed once on june 26 and tried to commite suicide. he was there for me…then we continued to fight, i tried to kill myself again for him tht time because he said to give him space 3 months..i didnt listen so i called him and he said if u cant respect me its over for ever! it killed me,......but 3 days later he called me…1 week later it went bad again :( just 2 days ago he said he wanted out forever he just wasnt happy…..i begged and begged and he finnaly said okay he would give me time to make myself happy because he still believes that happy person is inside me….i have the urge to call him and stuff…but i want to actually leave him alone and actually make myself happpy….because if i dont make things better now i will actually loose him forever and our relationship will be ruined forever i need help. i need to make myself better
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ReachOut StaffHi Vanessa -
We believe you can be a happy person again. You can do it! You may need some help, however, since you are coping with a lot. Have you checked out the Finding People to Help and Support You section on ReachOut? http://us.reachout.com/get-help/finding-people-to-help-and-support-you It’s full of tips for getting help. We hope you will check it out and try to find someone to help you get through these tough times ... and be happier!
the ReachOut Crew
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emmaw221i am never happy. getting bullied is too hard to stand my mom is letting me transfer shools
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ReachOut StaffHi there -
We are sorry to hear things have been so tough. Beginning in a new school will give you a fresh start. Might be good to check in with the school counselor if there is one at your new school just to get an extra measure of support as you start something new. Remember, it’s never OK for someone to bully or be bullied. You did the right thing in letting your Mom know what was happening. Hang in there. Sounds like things well be better soon.
The ReachOut Crew
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stephanie8187Dear (any reader or listener),
Hello! My name is Stephanie. What’s yours? What a website,huh? Well anyways, I found this website very interesting, and I would love to hear all of you folks stories..about..well..anything..and/or about this website related would be nice too. I suffer from major Bi-polar and Schitzophrenia, and I am cared for in a seperate, but ok enough home. I’m from Massachusett too. Please message me. Or email. Love it! Thank-you !!!!!
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ReachOut StaffStephanie, thank you for visiting the Reach Out site and we are glad you found the information useful. Keep visiting as we are continually posting new Real Stories and Fact Sheets that you may find interesting.
Thanks for your comments.
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Cp711what if you feel like all your friends have left you because of who you are dating? But you dont want to end it with her cus you like her?
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Rebekah Wadethats how i feel to but its with a boy and i’m a girl
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Sarah FirenzeYou feel like this but do you know for a fact they feel this way and what does it matter what they have to say anyways? Their just friends and anyways its not their relationship. I’d ask whoever it is that you “assume or feel” is being judgmental if they are and why. Then decide if they are really a friend. If you like the girl then who cares what anybody else says!
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lizzybabyx33this passed week I’ve been depressed and feeling shxtty :’( me and my closest relative faught and now he don’t want anything to do with me.I’ve been drinking , smoking , not sleeping , and not eating. He’s not talking to me and erased me out his life. This is the worst feeling in the world yet. I feel lonely and i need some serious advice. I feel a change in me and I feel like everything I touch I lose. My friends don’t help they make me feel worse. So please if anyone can help I would gladly appreciate it
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ReachOut StaffHey Lizbeth, it’s hard to go through tough times without any support. It does sound like you need to talk to someone, but if you can’t talk to your friends, what about anyone else in your family or a trusted adult like a teacher or school counselor? See this fact sheet: http://us.reachout.com/facts/f for o…ther ideas of where you might find support. You could also try the Boys Town hotline at 1-800-448-3000. It’s free and not just for boys! Remember that you are NOT alone. Reach out and you’ll find someone there to help. Take care of yourself!
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Awsomegurl402I had the same problem. I was dating a guy and they were telling me that I could do better and everything and did not like him. I have been with this guy since kindergarden and I just recently broke uo with him not becuase of my friends but becuase it was for my own good. I mean dont think about what they say. Its your relationship not theirs. Ignore them and keep your head held high
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slenderloli19What about medication for depression? I don’t want to abuse it of course; however, I would like to see if it helps. What if I really do need it?
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ReachOut StaffHi there! If you’re referring to the “avoid drugs or alcohol” portion of the fact sheet, we’re not referring to substances that are prescribed medications, like medication for depression. If you think that you might be depressed, hit up our fact sheet at http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/depression-causes-types-and-symptoms Then .you can also see options for help in this one: http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/depression-management-and-treatment-options which, addresses ways to deal with depression on your own, as well as medical professional options. In any case, it sounds like you need to talk to someone about how you’re feeling, so definitely reach out to friends and family to get the support that you need. Wishing you the best! ReachOut
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Elizabeth Hanfordlatley in the new neighboorhood i moved in to theirs been a lot of drama it wasint that way at frist but now they dont wanna be my friends and they wont stop bothering me and this isint the first time ive hade trouble with kids in my school or were i live i have always been very nice and truth ful and i just dont no what im doing wrong
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ReachOut StaffHi Elizabeth. Thanks for posting on ReachOut. It’s hard to know exactly what’s going on between you and the kids you are interacting with from your comment, but if you feel like you are being bullied, see our fact sheet on this http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/what-to-do-if-you-are-being-bullied and d.efinitely talk to an adult you trust. We’re thinking of you!
The ReachOut Crew
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KB2001When Life gets to hard I intend to say f this because I can’t take it my parents scream at me and I just walk away. I sometimes feel like a no body But I don’t care because I am somebody,am my fathers Daughter.
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ReachOut StaffHey -
You are right - you ARE somebody. Seems like life is a bit tough right now with the parents but don’t let that drag you down. Is there someone you can talk to whom you trust? Maybe a school counselor, minister, older sibling or other relative? Sometimes just having someone else to vent to can be a help. You might also want to check out the fact sheets on ReachOut about communicating with family members - particularly the one on arguing with your parents… http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/arguing-with-your-parents.
We are thinking of you.
The ReachOut Crew
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KB2001When things get tuff I start to feel like I don’t belong here my parents yell at me and I can’t help but yell back and fight with them.
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ReachOut StaffHi there -
Tension between parents and teens isn’t unusual. Yet when it gets you down to the point you describe some professional help for you and your family may be needed to help sort things out. I suspect neither you nor your parents like the fighting. Have you checked out the Finding People to Help and Support You section on ReachOut http://us.reachout.com/get-help/finding-people-to-help-and-support-you? We ho.pe this helps.
The ReachOut Crew
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dancer4life1what if a guy i really like keeps coming in and out of my life? i cant keep him out because i feel horrible when i push him away but i feel the same when i let him in. any suggestions?
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Julia RussoI have serious self-esteem issues because of my mother. And dealing with both of my parents and my brother makes me constantly pissed off or upset. My mother had a huge mental break down after her divorce, and she is just now recovering after 4 years. in that time I went from being a young kid to a mature teenager. So, now she treats me like a child, and constantly points out how bad of a person I am. I know that i’m not perfect, but i’m a great student and I go to one of the most stressful, but best high schools. I can’t decide if she is the problem, or me.
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ReachOut StaffHi Julia. Thanks for sharing your experience on ReachOut. It sounds like you (and your mom) have been through a lot. Have you tried talking to her about how you are feeling? Maybe in a calm moment, going out for coffee or doing something together you enjoy or used to enjoy? See our fact sheet on tips for communicating how you are feeling to her in a way that won’t put her on the defensive, but will hopefully help you feel heard - http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/more-tips-for-communicating-effectively
We’re thinking of you,
The ReachOut Crew
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HeatherI’m Christian too, but for some stupid reason I haven’t been able to stop for very long
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HeatherI’ve cut/burn/scratch myself for 4 and a half years now. I stopped a few months ago and thought I was over it (I was wrong) I feel like a hippocrate, cuz I was helping a friend stop and a few weeks after she stopped I started again I never told her, but when I did so did she. My parents don’t know, I never told them, Because they found out my older brother cut and they’re way of helping was to glass house him (No Privacy) I don’t want that. If they do that to me they’ll find things that they really would wish they hadn’t. should I tell them? I told my sister and she’s tried to help as much as she can. she even got me a book to help me stop. It’s been really bad lately. since my parents told me I wasn’t allowed to even talk to my boyfriend anymore even though I’m in love with him. I’ve tried explaining that to them and it’s getting bad enough that hurting myself seems like the best way to calm down. That if the pain that I feel inside comes outside then it wont hurt anymore. I don’t know how to tell them that they are hurting me more then I am when I cut.
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ReachOut StaffHi Heather. Thanks for posting your comment. Sharing your experience here is the first step to getting help. While it’s awesome that your sister is trying to help you, it is very difficult as you know to stop harming yourself. We strongly encourage you to email or call our friends at BoysTown National Hotline (not just for boys) http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/boys-town-national-hotline You c.an reach out to them anonymously 24/7 and speak to a trained counselor who can talk you through how to get professional help for cutting. They are also great with talking to parents who don’t understand (totally your choice on whether you would want them to).
We’re thinking of you,
The ReachOut Crew
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cre0nHi lizzy, my name is samuel and i also feel lonely at times and wish there was someone i could talk to that understood me. I have no one in my immediate family that i feel i can connect with on a personal level. The only people i really talk too are my two 6 year old twin cousins that always are happy to see me. I just wish there was an adult that i can express my thoughts and feelings too. I know what depression is like and if you are willing to listen to me and could also listen to you. thanks for reading
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ReachOut StaffHi Samuel, thanks for sharing your support for Lizzy! Not having a person to connect to might feel frustrating, but if you do want to talk, there are people to call at The Boys Town National Hotline 24/7 at 1-800-448-3000, or www.yourlifeyourvoice.org, with online email & live chat support available. Wishing you the best! The ReachOut Crew
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bakonfreekI have a crap transcript, I can’t do college because of it, I won’t be able to get a good job because of it, I can’t go into the military because I am morally, mentally, and physically incapable, I won’t be able to do anything. I will get jobs turned down because someone with a better looking transcript will be the preferred choice. I can’t afford to go to a good college, and I don’t have the transcript for it. I am going to be living a poverty-stricken life because I can’t (not won’t, can’t) do my homework. I don’t know if I should just deal with a shitty life and wish I was dead(....). I just don’t know what the hell to do anymore, or if there really is anything I can do.
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ReachOut StaffHello -
We are so sorry to hear that life is treating you so tough. Please hang on… things can get better, but maybe you need to reach out to get some help? We hear your pain. Please give the Boys Town hotline a call at 1-800-448-3000. They are available 24/7 just to listen. Go ahead, give it a try.
The ReachOut Crew
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zztoptoughtimesThank you so much. I was seriously considering suicide and nothing made any sense anymore. I’ve just been following simple tips on this one post for a week or so. BAM! I feel awesome again! Thanks so much!!!! Thank you
All I needed was some sleep, excercise, good eating, to stop using drugs to ‘fix’ it, and the rest of the problems sorted themselves out. I am back to the old me 
Thanks guys, keep up the site
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ReachOut StaffWe are so glad to hear this good news. Please remember if you feel yourself slipping back into feeling depressed that you can also always call the Boys Town National Hotline, or visit them online. Boys Town National Hotline at 1-800-448-3000, available 24/7, and also available for email support online at http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/aboutus/Pages/ContactForm.aspx or through a live chat feature at https://secure.yourlifeyourvoice.org/YLYV_Chat
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Devin15Hello, My name is Devin and I really don’t know where to put this or where to start but I have no clue what to do anymore. I have been feeling very depressed people dont understand.. I am homeschooled I dont have any freinds I dont have anyone to talk to who would even take me serius im a extremly shy and not social at all. I have been in mental facilities all my childhood and have been diagonosed with Bipolar disorder. Al my life ive been called crazy retarded and im sick of it I fear if i seek help ill only end back up in a locked up room looking through a window all day.. I hate knowing other people go to school they have somewhat of a meaning or life and things to do. I sleep all day I dont have anything to do I dont know if life is even worth living Ill be branded as that crazy kid all my life I try so hard to the point where everything falls.. Noone cares noone will it is right I mean i go to edge(high school youth group) And every kid their knows what to say can joke around have a great time all social all freinds but me I try to fit in yet im always on the side thinking about what to say.. I want to be a good person and have a good life but from this POV all I see for me is a lonly life or suicide. Ive looked through many sites for people like me theirs not many everyone is in school most have lifes have some freinds and someone at least. I feel all alone in this situation witch I am at the time. I want help but I hate feeling adnormal or crazy ive been branded it all my life theirs a point where you just say enough fuck it all… Im at that point. I hope one day someone can take me serius and help me. Im not a weak person just lost and im not insane. Any suggustions would help I hope. Have a nice day.
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ReachOut StaffHey Devin, it sounds like you’re going through a rough time, but you are NOT alone! We hear that you’re lonely and that you feel like you have a hard time fitting in, but that doesn’t make you weak. That makes you normal. Even people who go to public schools have these same issues, though they might be surrounded by people while feeling lonely. It’s important for you to know that you ARE a good person and you CAN have a good life. It sounds one way for you to help yourself is to find a way to meet more people with your similar interests. If you share your common interests with others, you might be less shy in interacting with them. You say that you’re homeschooled, so we wonder if you’ve talked to your parents about your feelings of loneliness? It might help to talk to them about your feelings, but if you’d rather not, we’re concerned about you and hope that you talk to someone. Don’t keep this inside! You can call BoysTown 24/7 at 1-800-448-3000 to talk anonymously to a counselor (or you could text or email them at: http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org ). You can also get peer support in our Forums at: http://us.reachout.com/forums/forum.php Don.t give up, it WILL get better! We’re thinking of you! The ReachOut Crew
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Devin15We will see. I have already tried talking with my mother she did not take me seriusly. Ill look into that even though I have no clue what to say to a counselor. I hope this site can help. Thanks for showing some caring.
Have a nice night.
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Charl3sHi Devin15,
I don’t know exactly what to say to you, or how to say it, but when I saw your comment I thought you might be able to take comfort in some of my experiences. The situation that I am in is quite different then yours, however there are aspects that I do relate to. I’ll start of by saying that I love that you know that you are not weak, because that is so true, the fact that you are even seeking out help shows that you are strong. What I really wanted to comment on was your mother not taking you seriously. I have told my mom 4 separate times about this combination of things that I’m struggling with. The first over the phone, the second was in a meeting with my high school guidance counsellor, the third when I saw her over thanksgiving break, and the fourth on skype last week. Each time is really difficult for the both of us. But each time we make progress. Sometimes parents will accidentally block things out of what hear because they don’t know how to handle it and don’t want to believe it. They don’t mean for to do it, or to hurt you through doing it, it just happens. After those 4 lengthy discussions with my mom she is still not convinced that there is something that I need to get help for, but she is open to the possibility. It takes time and I understand that you probably feel even more alone when your mother doesn’t take you seriously, but there is a good chance that she isn’t seeing what you are because she doesn’t want there to be anything wrong. Parents want the best for their kids, and I have a feeling that if you keep trying to talk to your mother about it, while giving her time to process a bit in between that you can get her to understand.
Good Luck!
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jordanbob94Hey I know this was made 3 years ago but if there’s any chance you still get E-mails about this or something, I’d really like to know what that book you were reading was called.
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ReachOut StaffHey jordanbob94!
Posters don’t get emailed when there is a comment posted, so we don’t know if they’ll be looking. Just in case they don’t respond, the poster was talking about thinking errors and we do have a factsheet on those: http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/common-thinking-errors . The “Ten common thinking errors” in that factsheet are derived from the work of David Burns, MD, author of Feeling Good, which could possibly be in the scope of books that the poster’s taking about. We hope that helps! The ReachOut Crew
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stepitup7713I feel messed up because my aunt just doesn’t understand me idk she’s making me feel helpless and i try talking to her but it feel like she does not listen she doesn’t even know i have a bf. I would love to piss her off but I’m afraid of what my Aunt can do, but I’m almost 21 and I wish I was gone but I dont know. I want to leave but she just call the cops.
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ReachOut StaffHey there- Sorry to hear you’re feeling misunderstood by your Aunt. These tips may help you deal with the conflict you’re experiencing: http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/arguing-with-your-parents
Is there another trusted person you could talk to? 18 is the age that young people in the USA can legally leave home, without the consent of a parent, or guardian. The cops would not be able to do anything if you left home and are over 18 years old. Remember, leaving home is a big decision that should not be taken lightly. This fact sheet may help you reflect on what’s best for you: http://us.reachout.com/facts/factsheet/leaving-home <3
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SoullessI feel like shit everyday, I am overwhelmed and stressed out and am emotionally unstable I try to keep it together everyday for work, but inside I’m dying, I cry so hard that I can literally feel a stabbing sharp pain stabbing into my heart and I can feel the bottom of my stomach. I have so much anger and pain inside me and so many other emotions it feels like I am being eaten alive and someone is trying to test me and see how far they can push me until I just loose it, I have had multiple mental break downs and I have been hospitalized for being suicidal in a mental hospital, I am 20 years old and will be 21 in July. the feelings I have started mostly when I was 12 and I moved out of my house when I was 14 and lived on the streets and stayed at different peoples house’s and friends house’s there is just so much that has happened to me that has contributed to how I feel and who I am today…it’s hard to wright everything cause there is just so many things that have happened to me and that I have done to make me feel this way…I used drugs from 11 to 18 and then on and off from then to now…which probably doesn’t help and makes things worse and makes me more confused then I already am…I feel like I am psychotic and I am so severely depressed before I worked and had to go to work I would just lay in bed and do nothing all day and I have no interest in doing anything, except one thing it’s the only thing that makes me feel better and makes me feel like I have something that I can trust and is mine and I have control of it and it can’t hurt me or betray me etc. If I had a choice I would do that one thing everyday all day and then I would actually feel better, but in reality I know that it will just cover up what is going on inside of me and make it worse in the long run….I feel so lost…all I want is to be happy and loved I want to be loved so much, I fantasize that someone would just come and hold me so tight when I am crying and just hold me and hold me and love me and tell me everything is going to be alright and I wish I had someone who could just take care of me for once instead of me taking care of everyone else and having to hold it together for everyone else…it makes me want to just run away from everyone and everything just for a while so I can breath just for a minute and not have a worry in the world…and I have so much self hatred inside of me it kills me…I know there are so many other people out there who have it way worse then me, but that doesn’t mean what I feel doesn’t matter and that I should just suck it up…and I think another problem is I care WAY to much and I can feel other peoples pain…
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ReachOut StaffHi Soulless,
We are so sorry that you are going through such pain. It sounds like you have experienced a lot of trauma throughout your life, and that you really need to let someone help you identify the sources of your pain and develop a method to help you recover. It may take some time and be a process to find the right source of support, but don’t lose hope! There are many people and services who can and will help you. Please check out: http://us.reachout.com/get-help/finding-people-to-help-and-support-you .
We know it can feel like such a lonely struggle, and it can be so hard to put on a brave face for the outside world. We encourage you to speak with the counselors at the National Suicide Prevention LIfeline: 1-800-273-8255, or chat with them online at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ They. might be able to guide you to the right people who can help.
Hurting yourself is never the answer. You are important and you matter. There are ways to help yourself and to find happiness. Please know that you can feel better one day, and don’t give up! We are here to support you in your journey.
The ReachOut Crew